the distance due to H1N1

Actually this Monday edi planed that will have a date with my dear on tonight, yam cha together. Then yest we decide to watch a movie and have dinner together.

So, as usual, I take my lunch time to buy movie tickets. Ice Age 3 is also almost fully book.

just when i prepare to go home, Kw tell me that MMU(the place he study,cyberjaya) got 3ppl kena H1N1 and 13 ppl is quarantine!!!! gosh.

and when he telling me this matter, he was like asking me to make a decision whether I am afraid of going out with him. I am so confusing... I do not afraid of H1N1 as I know is depend on our own immune sys to kill the virus. What am I afraid is I will infect other ppl, eg, my family and dear friends. I don want him to misunderstand as if I am affraid of death due to the stupid virus. I am NOT. in a second, like many thing rush tro my head. what is my decision? what is my best choice? at this time, I DON CARE bout the MOVIE tic, I have no mood at all...

Besides that, I am worry of KW. what if....is real...and he get infected??? wanna cry my heart out. is like, u cant meet him, and if u does, i kena myself, I don bother, but I live with family...I don wan them to be infected. And my friends, my boss.... am I being selfish??? I don wan to meet him, coz I selfish?and I miss him, I cannot see him!!! at last, I tell him what I feel.

He said that I affraid.... yes, i afraid of is infect to others.....I mentioned again. I hope he understand. I also dono what to do. Please don ask me what to do... he oso afraid that if this infect me too. I m glad he also think of me. And I question him back if he want to meet me. He said he don know either.

His dad ask him to go back home rather stay at cyber. and I tell him what if infected to ur family? (sorry, not wat to curse here, we expect the worst!!) U, everyone have to think twice. We both have to stand in each other's shoes, take the view of both sides.... I advise him better to stay home quarantine, as the virus one infected, after 3-7days only show symptoms. and he told me his housemate fever 3 day already?!! his hsmate went to consult doctor and the doctor did not say anything bout this case.

Again,we raise the ques, shd we meet?(in our heart)

after that he told me his housemate no fever d (that time I edi asked miao to watch movie with me). Is he asking me to make decision again???? I am glad that, we both say things out frankly of what each other feel without hard feelings. Just hope that he knew and understand me, and I understand him.

Now is in the fact that,
I miss him,
we cancel date,
he wanna meet with me if i not afraid,
I worry infected to others,
I worry him get infected,
I don care if I infected,
he and I dono what to do,
hsmate get fever for 3 days!!
and knowing that now he no fever d,
do we wanna meet again???
and I had asked Miao go watch with me


This H1N1 ruin our lives!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<>