Since the day....no promising

Since the day I moved to KL, I am glad for every people I met
Since the day Miao resigned, I lost one online kaki
since the day miao's email was discovered by her superior, I lost one email kaki again
Since the day I graduated,I wan search for a research job,but end up as admin
Since the day I stepped into this company, I said i wanna work as temporary,and i worked one year d!
Since the day I said i started to apply job, I get worried everyday
Since the day boss said i'm not that initiative, I tried my best to achieve that,but...it need time
Since the day I said my English is weak, I started read online news, but only for interesting news.
Since the day I said I wan learn make up, I'd been waiting till now,and still hoping..
Since the day I said i wan to go Aus/Taiwan, instead i went Singapore.
Since the day I fell in love, every little movement of him,bring greatest impact of me.
Since the day I had an accident, I tried to appreciate everything, and be more cautious.

Every things that I'd done, doesn't seems all are done in the way I said earlier. I keep want others to promise me, and I can't even promised myself!How pathetic! Things wasn't the way we wanted always. What I says, is not promising/convincing enough to let others believe in me. Although I'm sad at times when things goes wrong, disappointment in myself is heavier than what others promised me. I have no confidence sometimes. I try to let go...at least i don want to promised myself, I let the boat float, as long as it won't sink.

May everything cheer you up! Think positive!